for the time you need to know

 

I write it for you to read it when you wanted to know...

 well...

to be honest once some one loved me very much...

he was the top guy in university , absolutley handsome (AS OTHERS WERE TELLING ME ) well builted , skillful in different majores like music, sport, art , religious ,...totally sociable and well mannered toward others especially girls ,...

he was in love with me and he examined variety of ways to prove it , he made a birthday party and invited me , he bought gifts for my birthday , he tried to help me in manupulating tasks at university as some others were doing the same , he thought these all are different from others but he didnt understand all of them are just result of looking to others , he didnt know that he is imitaiting them .

but to me was different as he felt the same.

it takes 3 years, I was waiting for him to just tell me the case as others in every where were talking about .I screwed my others chance with some perfect boyes who I liked them , he took me all , he made them away from me ...

he made me defame by his love ...

till then I liked that make him endear to myself and it takes energy from me, I convinced myself to like the person who is in love with me , ... and finally it happened. 

when it happened , it finished!  

even then he wasnt dare to even ignor his pride, he was the most proud person I have met beside myself.

he was proud enough to put his words in some one's mouth and make it rumor and then looked at my reactions ,

he was ....

I was proud too, I had already sacrified myself once to let him come nearer.

not even he didnt come . he misused the oppotunity i made for him , he didnt deserve it . 

so mine was finished too.  

mine never started and it finished but his was started 3 years ago and he made it end because of his pride. 

if it had finished actually ....!